I haven't written in so long I don't know what I have disclosed about homeschool and what I have left out. I can't begin to communicate how difficult it has been. I often feel like my psyche is fracturing. I never felt like my job was done as a homemaker. The house was never clean enough. The kids were never clean enough. However, compared to now my home was a museum before. Compared to now my kids were always bathed with their hair done. Being a teacher and homemaker has tested my patience in ways I never thought were possible. I thought I didn't have patience as a mother.
Why do I keep doing it? To say I do it because I love it would be lying. To say I do it because my kids are smarter would be lying. I am not sure why I do it. I do know that the spirit pressed on my soul saying, "You must." I could not deny His pressing power and I could not make any other choice and sleep at night. So, here we are. I have often be called upon to do hard things that I have not wanted to do. I know as I have been obedient I have been richly blessed.
I can see myself at some far distant date saying, "I am so glad I homeschooled. It was the best choice I could have made for my family."
But right now, I am just trying to make it through the day.
There are two curriculums I will swear by, for language arts the Riggs Institute, and for math Singapore Math. Science I have not found something I love and for history, I just wish I could write my own history book. However, right now I have just enough time to brush my teeth.
