MILK BUBBLES

 This first picture makes me so happy. So happy.

Milk running down his cheeks.

Milk bubbles on his lips.

 

I put Sierra's hair in a pony tail today.

Not one of those low ones where the hairs bearly fit.

A real ponytail.

It made my day.

 

We blarred the radio all the way to school.

It was a collection of Disney songs.

We danced and sang in the car.

 

I found myself again.

 

The title of this blog is laugh mommy.

I think Sierra was maybe two and a half when she would say often,

"Laugh, mommy."

She realized something that even I hadn't.

I didn't laugh anymore.

I was too serious about everything.

Sadly, I didn't feel like laughing.

 

Today, as I pulled out of the school parking lot.

I thought I found my laugh again.

A feeling of real joy overcame me.

 

I am not sure what to attribute it to.

But, I think a lot of it has to do with this little boy.

It isn't that I didn't enjoy my other two babies. I did.

I loved them every bit the same and still do.

I just think I am in a different place in my life.

 

I shocked myself when I said to my sister,

"If I found out I was pregnant again tomorrow, I would be so happy."

I know I just had a baby three weeks ago today.

And no I am not even going there yet.

And I am certain it is the furthest thing from Nate's mind.

But, I just love being a mother.

I love my three little ones.